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        | The field at Chelvaston in 1978 | 
      
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        | Chapter 12 - The Final Push - Tour Completed | 
      
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          March 27 Chelvaston, England
 
 They scrubbed another mission today, so after a breakfast snack I went back to sleep. Got
          up to shave and eat chow.
 
 I have hopes of finishing up in a very short while so keep hoping and wishing for us.
 
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          March 28 Chelvaston, England
 
 Well, I almost got to go on a mission today. Was just about ready to takeoff when
          "bang" went a tire. Somebody else took off in our place. Didnt make us too
          mad as it was a pretty rough target. Im really sweating out the last few missions.
 
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          March 29 Chelvaston, England
 
 Another dreary day of just hanging around. We were stood down because of weather. Two or
          three weeks ago I would have given anything for this rest but now that I have so few to go
          Id like to fly and get them over with. This hanging around isnt doing me any
          good.
 
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          March 30 Chelvaston, England
 
 Sweetheart Im also not much of a hand at praying myself but I must admit that I will
          offer up a thankful prayer to whomever when I complete the 35th.
 
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          April 1 Chelvaston, England
 
 No flying today because of weather so it meant another day of hanging around. Spent most
          of the afternoon cleaning our aircraft - shes is in fine shape
 
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          April 2 Chelvaston, England
 
 Another tense day waiting. Not much to do except duck out of ground school classes with
          occasional showers. The kind of day you like to spend indoors - cuddling.
 
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            April 3, 1945 Chelvaston, England
 Hello Kid,
 
 Eureka! Finally managed to get a mission in today. Wasnt too bad as we were across
          the target before they had time to track us. The boys behind us were not as lucky. The
          crummiest part of the mission was bad weather along the route and a low light level
          landing at 9 P.M. We had delayed our takeoff waiting for the weather to clear. It was 10
          P.M. before I got back to the barrack. Scheduled to fly again tomorrow. Doesnt leave
          me much time to chew the fat tonight. No time to sit back relax and dream about seeing you
          soon. Hope my luck holds out a little longer.
 
 The field is going to be inspected by a group of bigshots tomorrow so Ill have to
          make my bed before leaving on the mission.
 
 Good night fatty. Hopefully Ill dream - of us. Keep hoping - and pleasant dreams.
          Love!
 
 Your guy
 Ray
 
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          4 April 1945 Chelvaston, England
 
 Darling sweetheart of mine,
 
 Struggling with my thoughts - trying to express them is frustrating. Whats in my heart
          just cant be described. Its more than just loving you - its knowing that the
          reciprocity is there. What a soul satisfying feeling.
 
 Just as I thought when I wrote you last night we got up three hours later for a mission,
          Well, Im back that's what counts. How I sweat, and how I look forward to sending you
          that cablegram so near, yet so far.
 
 So much more Id like to say but Ill save it. I keep drifting off as I lie
          here. Be good - and sleep well.
 
 Your `feller Ray
 
 P.S. : Mulvaney was turned down for his 2nd lieutenancy - the paper pushing SOBs
 
 PPS. Yes, Nazism is definitely on its way out. They are on the run - but its going to be a
          tough chase. They have taken our pounding so far.
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          5 April 1945 Chelvaston, England
 
 Hello Doris,
 
 Well, got another mission in today. Dont forget to chalk it up. No-not quite ready
          for the cablegram - not quite yet. Because of the bad weather, we let down thru the clouds
          at the earliest opportunity to an extremely low altitude. We passed over parts of Germany
          our ground troops had just taken. What a sight, shell holes, bomb craters, blasted houses
          and wide spread destruction. What a hell it must have been.
 
 In reply to your question. Yes, I have bombed the Ruhr valley, quite often - Cologne,
          Coblenz and Frankfurt. One of the worst flak areas in Germany. We cheered when it was
          encircled. Save us from going there .
 
 Its darned thoughtful of you - not telling my folks everything. It will be a joy to
          surprise them.
 
 Mulvaneys snoring too beat the band. Good night. See you soon - I hope.
 
 Fingers crossed?
 
 Love
 Ray
 
 
 
 
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        | Doris letters continued to express her apprehension about the completion
        of my tour of duty. It was agonizing for her to wait for my letters only to hear about not
        flying. We were both under a strain hard to imagine. In other respects her letters
        reflected her daily activities, visits to my parents, family gossip, news about winding
        down of the war and waiting for the completion cablegram. Her reflections on the coming of
        spring and the possibility of us greeting it together was uplifting to me and stimulated
        my dreams. Incidently Doris ceased writing on 14th April. | 
      
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 6 April 1945 Chelvaston, England
 
 My Darling Doris,
 
 I had expected to write a long letter today, however, it was 12.30 P.M. before I got up to
          eat lunch, then dropped into see the flight surgeon about a running nose. Sulfa pills and
          bed rest was prescribed until supper. Felt better afterward.
 
 Jackson just got in - a little pickled moaning about what his wife would say if she saw
          him this way. Shortly afterward he walked out and puked his guts up. Hes sobered up
          and is now asleep.
 
 Flying tomorrow so to the sack I must go, its 11 P.M. Fingers crossed? Good night.
 
 Your guy
 Ray
 
 
 
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        | On 7 April I finally reached the golden pinnacle, completion of my 35th
        mission and the sending of that long awaited cablegram to Doris shortly after it landed.
        The cablegram sent on the 7th was not received until the 14th. It is reproduced below and
        its somewhat coded message was "WILL SEE SPOTTY SOON." On the 8th I wrote to
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 7-8 April 1945 Chelvaston, England
 
 Sweetheart,
 
 Yesterday was quite an occasion and because of it I missed writing. When I tell you why
          I'm sure you will understand. By the time you get this letter you will probably have
          received my cablegram and know what Im referring to. You see yesterdays mission was
          the 35th. So here I sit, more dozed than I care to admit - everything coming true - our
          dreams will become a reality. There were several times when I had my doubts about getting
          there. But here I am a `happy warrior (thats what you are upon completion). Its a
          good feeling knowing that your going to get home - to your dreams. No more wondering about
          if this letter and this mission was to be your last. No more dreading the sound of the
          orderlys voice "your flying, sir." None of us here were afraid of getting it up
          there - if it did happen, it was too quick to worry about. The thing I feared most was
          what it would mean back home. Also missing so much of the life I look forward to living -
          with you. I think of the boys that havent been as lucky and wonder why it was them
          and not me. What quirk of fate determines these things. They were all looking forward to
          living every bit as much as I. But? Well enough said.
 
 Wonderful ring in those words - `coming home. Right now all I have to do is wait for
          my orders to come thru. When they do, probably in a week or two I will be sent to a depot
          where I will sweat out a ship or plane back to the States. This may take as long as three
          weeks. So all I can say, barring accidents I should be home some time in May.
 
 What pictures are conjured up in my mind - spring, us. It overwhelms me.
 
 Dont forget to let me know how the folks reacted when you broke the news to them.
 
 Today I brought the traditional battle of scotch out to the ground crew. Cost about $15
          but they deserved it. They really took care of my hide.
 
 Ill keep writing and let you know how things go - Mulvaney still has one more to go.
 
 Pleasant dreams, see you soon.
 
 Ray
 
 
 P.S. We were attacked by jets on this last mission. Gosh I sweat but strangely enough
          wasnt scared; you see it was either yes or no - Im glad it was yes. Think we
          shot one down.
 
 In 1988 I wrote an account of my feelings during my last mission for a 305 Bomb Group
          Anthology which was then included in "The Experiences of American airmen in
          Europe" by Roger Freeman, 1991. Ive included it as  Appendix
          B.
 
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